Party Gone Wrong
I invited him to a Hans’ party last night. He knew some people at the party, but kept telling me that he only came to see me and wanted to spend time with me.
I am allergic to alcohol so I was sober when everyone became drunk, including M. I was trying to enjoy everything at the same time wanted to spend time with him alone. I went and hid in my friend’s room. He came and found me and thought that was weird and said we should go back to my place.
I didn’t. I stayed for whatever reason and finally, when I was too stressed out about my bf being unhappy, I started play-fighting with Hans to let my stress out. Hans did something ridiculous like held me upside down in public. I fought him back and the fight looked really serious. M clearly thought it was weird, but I didn’t want it to happen that way.
When we finally let the party, he was raging. He said something was really wrong with me and I have been dramatic all night, but when I told him that I was merely too worried about him being uncomfortable he said I was bullshitting. Bullshit, that’s all he said. And he left as soon as he walked me back to my place. And didn’t want to talk with me.
I don’t know what to do. I’m so lost and afraid that he really thinks I’m a psycho. I thought I was just a bit dramatic but it wasn’t about him. But he wouldn’t believe me.
He wouldn’t believe me…
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May 10, 13:36 at
We, most of us, do and say things when we are drunk, the recollection of which makes us cringe the next morning when we’re sober.
I feel sure Hans will understand.
May 10, 22:17 at
You really like to play with fire.
May 11, 13:40 at
You have only been seeing or interested in the guy for a month, but you have to be yourself, and you have to communicate. If you wanted to spend some time alone with him, you should have said that, not go into the bedroom and sulk. If you felt uncomfortable, you should have said so, and not communicated it in other ways.
He clearly is interested in you, and was not pleased with you flirting with this other guy. If he is interested in you, he will be back.
May 11, 19:02 at
searchingwithin: I hope he does come back.